Hello DaughterAlz,
Try not to beat up on yourself. You are probably doing one of the hardest thing a person has to do, and that's watch your love one disappear under this cloak of Alzheimer. Let's face it, it is sometimes overwhelmingly sad to watch them lose themselves. Maybe some days you can handle it a little better than others...if you are tired, it's always harder. I think in your heart you know that every time he repeats or does something odd, its a reminder that this is REALand you are losing him. Maybe you are angry and sad at the same time, but whatever, you are doing the best you can. Take care of yourself.🙏

This is so true Karen. Even though they are still alive, we are grieving...so many emotions, grief, fear, anger, sadness and more. So far D is good, and most I am dealing with is his not knowing hiw to do things and his forgetfulness,...he has gone through a nasty stage, but fir the past 5 months has been pleasant but memory deteriorating. I have let the anger and fear go, replacing it with love and compassion, and a load was lifted off my shoulders. I also take things one day at a time.

I have the same feelings and I feel so bad after I lose my patience but knowing my husband would always be there for me keeps me going.

You are probably in the anger stage of grief. No feeling is wrong, it just is.....

We all face the same questions. I believe it is because we love that person unconditionally! That's all that matters anyway!